What kind of a guy will pinch his friend's ear,may i stress that his friend is a girl and cause her to fall off her seat and then laughed his head off...."tut..........."What kind of friend will force her friend,again let me emphasize her friend is a girl to buy lottery for her dad and get surrounded by "ma lat lou".What kind of friend will make alliance with each other and constantly bully their friend for over hours..What kind of friend will just do all those terrible things...what happened to this world..sigh sigh sigh...
I know i'm being a bit dramatic..but whats life without a bit of drama?...And as much as we pretend to curse,tease and eff each other and hate each other,but deep down we know we had a great time!!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
When At Work
It is very interesting the kind of people and things that you can come across at work.Even though i would think that my job revolves around a very small circle of people,they never fail to surprise you.So there was this little boy,okay form 1 boy whom i have been given the noble responsibility to babysit him,okay keep an eye on him while he waits for his mum.God,this has immediately transfered back to my form 1.I remembered how my dad has almost forbidden me to go to sport house practice just because i have to walk to school alone.I dun remember how i always managed to go in the end and most definitely why i wanted to go in the 1st place as i was never exactly that keen on sports.Or the countless lecture of walking against the traffic,beware of strangers,or be alert that kind of thing...of course i understand perfectly well the purpose of all that my parents did and i accepted it willingly but then again i vividly remembered how it feels like to be the super protected child in front of your friends.It must have been awkward and embarassing.So taking his feelings into consideration,i didnt want to make him feel uneasy as if some one has to babysit him..so i just keep some distance and survey anything before me.Then,i start to have some really casual conversation with him.Every question i asked came back with merely a 1 or 2 words answer.And every inch i step closer to him,he would just naturally back away few feets to the extent i fear he would just run off on me.Thankfully he didnt,we waited together for 20 minutes.I was just so amused at him,and cant stop wondering if i was the same when i was his age...and i thought...nah...I CANT be!!
Then again there was these 2 indians who seemed to be like father and son.As soon as i opened the door,the son just came trampling all over the place in his shoes...and he didnt seem to understand my request for him to take off his shoes..And this man start showing me some card with a coffee name on it.Then only i understand these 2 are trying to sell me stuff..It was so hard to understand their english that i have to strain my ears so much.And as i politely declined,he was just so insistent that i at least try the tester or something...i was like HELL NO!!I'm taking no drinks from a stranger besides they hardly look like any salesman.I went on for minutes trying to tell him no...in the end he would only leave when i promise to take down his numbers and have people to phone him if they are interested...As if that wasnt enough he still pester me for a while before i politely hold the door...indicating that i want them to leave. God..what is wrong with them, when people say no to you shouldnt you just smile say thank you and leave?And most importantly don go dirtying my spotless floor with your shoes....Later on i told my boss about it and saw his face..and after all his advise on what to do next time,i suddenly realise how the situation could have easily gone bad..while making a mental note for myself to not open door to any salesman..i really think that all of us especially the girls should keep our guards up more often these days.So as for my job,it is at a very stagnant stage as in you go through the same routine days after days,listen to the same music on my mp3,and always be in the constant dilemma of what to eat for lunch...but anyway i guess i have adapted to the lifestyle pretty good.I guess when some thing or place becomes your sanctuary,you ll look forward to it.
Then again there was these 2 indians who seemed to be like father and son.As soon as i opened the door,the son just came trampling all over the place in his shoes...and he didnt seem to understand my request for him to take off his shoes..And this man start showing me some card with a coffee name on it.Then only i understand these 2 are trying to sell me stuff..It was so hard to understand their english that i have to strain my ears so much.And as i politely declined,he was just so insistent that i at least try the tester or something...i was like HELL NO!!I'm taking no drinks from a stranger besides they hardly look like any salesman.I went on for minutes trying to tell him no...in the end he would only leave when i promise to take down his numbers and have people to phone him if they are interested...As if that wasnt enough he still pester me for a while before i politely hold the door...indicating that i want them to leave. God..what is wrong with them, when people say no to you shouldnt you just smile say thank you and leave?And most importantly don go dirtying my spotless floor with your shoes....Later on i told my boss about it and saw his face..and after all his advise on what to do next time,i suddenly realise how the situation could have easily gone bad..while making a mental note for myself to not open door to any salesman..i really think that all of us especially the girls should keep our guards up more often these days.So as for my job,it is at a very stagnant stage as in you go through the same routine days after days,listen to the same music on my mp3,and always be in the constant dilemma of what to eat for lunch...but anyway i guess i have adapted to the lifestyle pretty good.I guess when some thing or place becomes your sanctuary,you ll look forward to it.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
I like it!!
So when we are in school,we long for holidays.When we are on holidays,we long for something more interesting to fill our days.How typical was that...but whatever as i ll keep my promise.
So as i was just lying on my the couch and reading after 2 hours of my new favourite reality show.I felt slightly bored but like the feeling of actually feeling bored these days.At least i'm not all stressed out nor am i grumpy and go around moaning to every soul i meet.I can only remember feeling so during the very last holidays after SPM.Come to think of it now,how splendid it is to be able to feel bored ,at least after that you can do whatever you wish.You dun have to feel guilty to head out for supper because you still have no clue what your chemistry teacher was mumbling about.Hah!! That was so over already..
So anyway,i dont know what else to say.Screw it!! Have many great days ahead everyone!!
And to my dearest and most adorable fren of whom i have taken the selfish advantage to take it out on you yesterday,a thousand apologies...I love you lots!!
So as i was just lying on my the couch and reading after 2 hours of my new favourite reality show.I felt slightly bored but like the feeling of actually feeling bored these days.At least i'm not all stressed out nor am i grumpy and go around moaning to every soul i meet.I can only remember feeling so during the very last holidays after SPM.Come to think of it now,how splendid it is to be able to feel bored ,at least after that you can do whatever you wish.You dun have to feel guilty to head out for supper because you still have no clue what your chemistry teacher was mumbling about.Hah!! That was so over already..
So anyway,i dont know what else to say.Screw it!! Have many great days ahead everyone!!
And to my dearest and most adorable fren of whom i have taken the selfish advantage to take it out on you yesterday,a thousand apologies...I love you lots!!
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Blog Blog Blog!!
Ok perhaps i really should resume blogging before aaron complains further and getting another lousy blog comment from john..so anyway what is there to be said...sorry i'm going to get all deep and emo-ish here..
Lets see wat happened to me lately.I lost someone.I have regrets for so many things i could do but didnt.I failed to win the love of my love and now have decided to give up and move on.I have my confidence crushed again as things don turn out to be the way i want them to.I have my heart broken when the person i rely on so much failed to give me support when i most needed it.I felt so insecure now as i m too sure far worse and unbareable things are going to happen.I feel that one day i will be walking alone.If i ever fall, no one is going to be there.
Yes,at that moment my life sucks,and so do i...its one of the darkest period of my life.When something bad happens,it just doesnt stop there...it continues to trigger another series of unfortunate events.For many days back,i just spent so much effort fighting back tears that are welling in my eyes,stopping myself to weep on my bed,trying so hard to be in control...as a matter of fact i dun remember having ever shed so much tears like i did through out 2007.
But for all of u thats reading this,dun worry i'm not going to get all depressed and continued to cry cry and cry in the dark corner.What is done is done..nothing can be changed even if i shed a tonne of tears.So really,i'm perfectly fine now...life is really too short to be lived in constant self inflicted misery.
As for now,i'm trying to live the best of out my life..try to make amends.So whatever happens next,i'll live on!!Like they say..people are like teabags,you need to put them into hot water before you can know how strong they are.And now i just keep amazing myself for all the strength and intelligence i didnt know i have that get me through all the hot water!!So cheers you people!!Celebrate life,celebrate yourself as you really can be more than you can ever think of!! And i'm sorry i wont be so dark,deep and emotional next time...i promise!!
Lets see wat happened to me lately.I lost someone.I have regrets for so many things i could do but didnt.I failed to win the love of my love and now have decided to give up and move on.I have my confidence crushed again as things don turn out to be the way i want them to.I have my heart broken when the person i rely on so much failed to give me support when i most needed it.I felt so insecure now as i m too sure far worse and unbareable things are going to happen.I feel that one day i will be walking alone.If i ever fall, no one is going to be there.
Yes,at that moment my life sucks,and so do i...its one of the darkest period of my life.When something bad happens,it just doesnt stop there...it continues to trigger another series of unfortunate events.For many days back,i just spent so much effort fighting back tears that are welling in my eyes,stopping myself to weep on my bed,trying so hard to be in control...as a matter of fact i dun remember having ever shed so much tears like i did through out 2007.
But for all of u thats reading this,dun worry i'm not going to get all depressed and continued to cry cry and cry in the dark corner.What is done is done..nothing can be changed even if i shed a tonne of tears.So really,i'm perfectly fine now...life is really too short to be lived in constant self inflicted misery.
As for now,i'm trying to live the best of out my life..try to make amends.So whatever happens next,i'll live on!!Like they say..people are like teabags,you need to put them into hot water before you can know how strong they are.And now i just keep amazing myself for all the strength and intelligence i didnt know i have that get me through all the hot water!!So cheers you people!!Celebrate life,celebrate yourself as you really can be more than you can ever think of!! And i'm sorry i wont be so dark,deep and emotional next time...i promise!!
Thursday, December 27, 2007
The Long Awaited Moment
I always like to go to bookstore.One of my favourite being the Borders at The Curve.I have never tell anyone about this, bookstore especially this one seems to have some sort of charm that works on me.Everytime i walked into them,i felt belonged as if i have walked into the embrace of my lover.And when i smell the wonderful scent of books,i felt the special pull that nothing but these books have on me.Perhaps it was the environment,the atmosphere,the decorations that put me at ease and prompted me to fall in love with it but who cares as long as i still like it.
I haven been reading much as i have been too busy playing ever since my holidays started and not to mention my work which has been piling up for some time.I have many books waiting to be read at home but that didnt stop me from hanging out at Borders at Times Square.Oh one thing now i remember,one of my fren asked me...dont u ever feel bored always being by yourself?I was amused because clearly you dont know me enough if you would ask that question.In places like this,i felt too belonged to feel bored just because i'm alone and besides,i already have one of the many best things in life as my company.So going back,as i was just flipping through books,making a new to-buy list,i suddenly realised a man standing in front of me.I looked up and looked the man in his face.Familiar i thought but who exactly..then after bout 5 seconds...i yelled "Sir!!"The man smiled at me and say "What u doing here?" as if he cant believed his eyes for seeing me.This man who made my day was my former math tuition teacher,a man in his fifties with most grey hairs covering his head,big dark circles under his eyes,eyes that didnt seem to be able to focus on 1 point when he talks so u thought he wasnt looking at you when he is.And one thing that was really interesting..he oftens speak with such excitement especially when things are really profound.A very interesting character to me...
Anyway it all begins when he showed me the books he bought,one of it was written by a former St John's student and again i heard him talked with such passion.And then he accused me of just knowing C.S Lewis because he wrote the Chronicles of Narnia..And i was like"What nonsense!"Maybe i dont know all about literature but i surely know more than that.Just because i'm young doesnt mean i should be undermined.So we got into discussing more about our shared interest-literature.We talked about Shakespeare...he showed me around in the bookstore on must-read literature books which includes Watt Whitman,John Milton,Marlowe....then we went searching for french essayist like Victor Hugo and again he introduced me some must-read books...poetry,essays,plays and many others..We spent almost half an hour in the bookstore together talking,sharing and he shared his favourite line like "I celebrate myself..."
I cant tell you enough how i appreciate that short and pleasant meeting with this wise old man.I learned more with him in just half an hour than without him for 1 month.My long awaited moment,to meet someone like him who teach and show me what i didnt read and know,for me to share how much i love literature,love Shakespeare,Charles Dickens,Jane Austen without the fear that i would bored him.Someone who already lived in the world i dream of indulging myself.Someone who afterall appreciates literature and comprehend them like i do or much better.
After this wonderful day,i promised myself i ll read all those books.I know they are all waiting for me.They are the one i can instantly fall in love with even if i dun know them well as compared to the other things that i forced myself to like them.Well...call me a nerd,a freak or whatever you like as it never bothers me much as compared to the sympathy i felt for those who failed to like any book in their entire life.So whatever really...There is so little time for so many books....
I haven been reading much as i have been too busy playing ever since my holidays started and not to mention my work which has been piling up for some time.I have many books waiting to be read at home but that didnt stop me from hanging out at Borders at Times Square.Oh one thing now i remember,one of my fren asked me...dont u ever feel bored always being by yourself?I was amused because clearly you dont know me enough if you would ask that question.In places like this,i felt too belonged to feel bored just because i'm alone and besides,i already have one of the many best things in life as my company.So going back,as i was just flipping through books,making a new to-buy list,i suddenly realised a man standing in front of me.I looked up and looked the man in his face.Familiar i thought but who exactly..then after bout 5 seconds...i yelled "Sir!!"The man smiled at me and say "What u doing here?" as if he cant believed his eyes for seeing me.This man who made my day was my former math tuition teacher,a man in his fifties with most grey hairs covering his head,big dark circles under his eyes,eyes that didnt seem to be able to focus on 1 point when he talks so u thought he wasnt looking at you when he is.And one thing that was really interesting..he oftens speak with such excitement especially when things are really profound.A very interesting character to me...
Anyway it all begins when he showed me the books he bought,one of it was written by a former St John's student and again i heard him talked with such passion.And then he accused me of just knowing C.S Lewis because he wrote the Chronicles of Narnia..And i was like"What nonsense!"Maybe i dont know all about literature but i surely know more than that.Just because i'm young doesnt mean i should be undermined.So we got into discussing more about our shared interest-literature.We talked about Shakespeare...he showed me around in the bookstore on must-read literature books which includes Watt Whitman,John Milton,Marlowe....then we went searching for french essayist like Victor Hugo and again he introduced me some must-read books...poetry,essays,plays and many others..We spent almost half an hour in the bookstore together talking,sharing and he shared his favourite line like "I celebrate myself..."
I cant tell you enough how i appreciate that short and pleasant meeting with this wise old man.I learned more with him in just half an hour than without him for 1 month.My long awaited moment,to meet someone like him who teach and show me what i didnt read and know,for me to share how much i love literature,love Shakespeare,Charles Dickens,Jane Austen without the fear that i would bored him.Someone who already lived in the world i dream of indulging myself.Someone who afterall appreciates literature and comprehend them like i do or much better.
After this wonderful day,i promised myself i ll read all those books.I know they are all waiting for me.They are the one i can instantly fall in love with even if i dun know them well as compared to the other things that i forced myself to like them.Well...call me a nerd,a freak or whatever you like as it never bothers me much as compared to the sympathy i felt for those who failed to like any book in their entire life.So whatever really...There is so little time for so many books....
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Sri Nobel
"Wishing Well"
The crowd
He was all smiley just not able to capture it.
Melia,me and Michelle
Glad to have met herSri Nobel is actually a private institution of learning consisting of kindergarten,primary and secondary school which is located right in my neighbourhood but i have not once set foot in it or paid any attention to it.Things changed when Melia asked me to join some volunteering work to help out during the school's carnival.
Despite my lack of sleep,i still felt rather awaked when i was there plus it really was a pleasant surprise to see Michelle there as i haven't seen her since i stop math tuition.Michelle isn't from Melia's church,i guess both of us really did feel a little awkward in the beginning well at least i did.It really reminds me of the 1st day of school,people travelling in groups.I always wondered why is it that people tend to mingle only within their own fixed social circle,they greet,have polite conversation but never really open up.I can always feel whether someone is very reserved or open to making new friendship during 1st conversation,i guess thats first impression.
Anyway going back,i was assigned to help in the " Wishing Well" game which basically involves the kids dropping 1 cent coin into the plastic saucers placed inside the aquarium filled with water.At first i was worried thinking that this game would be a little bit boring even for children but then again i was proved wrong when i saw how the children was lightened up with bright smile when i handed them the 1 cent coins and patiently gave simple instructions.I was overwhelmed with the joy and laughters that these kids have brought to me.So i cheerfully high five with them when they win the game and comforted them to try again when they lose.At some point,i couldn't pick up the coins from the aquarium as fast as they throw it in.In fact some of them literally throw the coins in and splash water onto my face.I was very amused and cheered by these young and innocent souls but that doesn't stop my back from aching as i have to constantly hunch so that these little angels and devils can hear me.
The event ended about noon time.Although feeling exhausted i was very satisfied for having done something meaningful and happy for being able to spend some quality time with my friends.I really am determined to do this more often as i really like it!!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Welcome
Welcome to my new blog!I have decided to continue blogging here instead of my old friendster blog as i think it would be more symbolic as my life takes on a new chapter plus i really wouldnt mind a little change.So if life is a journey not a destination,let me make lasting memories from my journey.If life is a big jigsaw puzzle,let me search patiently for the bits and pieces that will eventually fall into places.If life is a written book,let me live through every moment without skipping a single page.If life has to be a constant struggle,let me struggle and gain something.
If life is like ice cream,let me savour it before it melts.If i must fall in life,let me stand up stronger,braver and wiser than before.If life is meant to be written in words,let me be as good as Shakespeare.If life is meant to be blogged,let me be the best blogger ever in my own special way!!Cheers!!
If life is like ice cream,let me savour it before it melts.If i must fall in life,let me stand up stronger,braver and wiser than before.If life is meant to be written in words,let me be as good as Shakespeare.If life is meant to be blogged,let me be the best blogger ever in my own special way!!Cheers!!
