Okay..i am just so completely into reading these few days and it cant be good considering i have a few tests next week.I dont know what got into me..i just feel like keep reading and reading.I would normally take a few weeks to finish a book,just take my own sweet time enjoying it.But it is different this time.I use little more than a day to finish a chinese book not once but almost twice.Read it over and over again..laugh at the same part i laughed,get my heart broken at the same part before and enjoying it more and more everytime.
Its like you dont care at all what will happen tomorrow as long as you can keep reading.I just love how it feels like when i indulge myself in a different world.Feel different feelings...this author is not bad at all,she is a legend in the chinese writing world.I guess reading provides me with some sort of a sanctuary..it is where you can turn to anytime and just forget your problem for a while and follow where the story takes you.It is time when you can let your imagination roams free and think of yourself as who ever you want to be,absolutely wonderful!!
I really think besides green tea ice-cream,teddy bears and french fries...books is one of human beings' greatest idea!!Cheers to all the authors i respect and admire above all..Haha gtg..bookworm is me.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
To Be Forgiving
I am a very simple person.I do not have too much of anger and hatred in me.Even when i am extremely pist off by somebody,the anger and frustration would normally disappear within at most 2 days.
But like life,there is always exception.Lately i am just so mad at this particular person.Not that i think about it all the times but on some unfortunate events i'm being painfully reminded.It is what she does that hurts me most painfully.I shall not go into details as it most probably will involve too many people.
But what i have learned is that, we truly cannot expect everyone in the world to be like us.Not everyone is entitled to treating us respectfully and with compassion.And there will always be people who constantly brings out the worst in us..pushing us to a point where we really have to be mean and harsh as opposite to what we strive to become.
There is so much more in life than to become such an angry and pist off person.We always have a choice,just dont let anyone stand in the way of us becoming who we really desire.I know its easier said than done but eventually we really have to be forgiving and let it go.It just take times and some willingness.And today..i think i can do so and hope i always can when required.
Until then..Cheers!!
But like life,there is always exception.Lately i am just so mad at this particular person.Not that i think about it all the times but on some unfortunate events i'm being painfully reminded.It is what she does that hurts me most painfully.I shall not go into details as it most probably will involve too many people.
But what i have learned is that, we truly cannot expect everyone in the world to be like us.Not everyone is entitled to treating us respectfully and with compassion.And there will always be people who constantly brings out the worst in us..pushing us to a point where we really have to be mean and harsh as opposite to what we strive to become.
There is so much more in life than to become such an angry and pist off person.We always have a choice,just dont let anyone stand in the way of us becoming who we really desire.I know its easier said than done but eventually we really have to be forgiving and let it go.It just take times and some willingness.And today..i think i can do so and hope i always can when required.
Until then..Cheers!!
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Something new!
I always have the feeling that i have wasted my time a lot after a long holiday because i ll look back and probably be able to see something more beneficial and constructive to do but didnt do.So as the saying goes,we should not live our life in regrets,i have decided to take up a foreign language.Hahaha why am i offering so many reasons,the truth is i just like the idea of learning another language and at time like this,its really not a bad idea to turn the focus back on yourself through learning.So the language i pick is French.Well not exactly because French is seemingly connected to anything romantic but simply because its one of the most spoken language in European countries and as according to my dad,mastering another language can only do you more good and no harm.
So today was my first class,my class is consist of almost 10 peoples from all walks of life.I was the second youngest and have classmates from age 19 to 30's.Interestingly,when i settled down,and the teacher who is a Jamaican started talking in some funny language,i immediately thought i was in the wrong class.But turns out he was speaking French and only he alone is comprehending as the rest of us looked equally clueless.Guess i really wasnt accustomed to not understanding a single word people utter,but then i think i ll get use to it.So then today we learn some really basic salutation,presentation and etc in French..i wasnt tougue-tied as i thought i would be but it is rather challenging to get the pronounciation right and at the same time remember what it means.There was time when the teacher asked us one by one like we were supposed to answer whats our name,how old are we kind of questions..i just looked at him and went blank like he literally just drain me of what i have just learned.A few moments of silence and he replied.."Maybe later..." which cause the whole class to giggle a little...I was like "damn!!i knew the answers just minutes ago.."and went red a little.The class lasted for two hours,although it was slightly tiring for me as i go there straight after work and dinner,but it was worth it and satisfying.
And as i really should turn in and get some beauty sleep,Aurevoir!! (which means goodbye in French..i just checked in my notes..lol).
So today was my first class,my class is consist of almost 10 peoples from all walks of life.I was the second youngest and have classmates from age 19 to 30's.Interestingly,when i settled down,and the teacher who is a Jamaican started talking in some funny language,i immediately thought i was in the wrong class.But turns out he was speaking French and only he alone is comprehending as the rest of us looked equally clueless.Guess i really wasnt accustomed to not understanding a single word people utter,but then i think i ll get use to it.So then today we learn some really basic salutation,presentation and etc in French..i wasnt tougue-tied as i thought i would be but it is rather challenging to get the pronounciation right and at the same time remember what it means.There was time when the teacher asked us one by one like we were supposed to answer whats our name,how old are we kind of questions..i just looked at him and went blank like he literally just drain me of what i have just learned.A few moments of silence and he replied.."Maybe later..." which cause the whole class to giggle a little...I was like "damn!!i knew the answers just minutes ago.."and went red a little.The class lasted for two hours,although it was slightly tiring for me as i go there straight after work and dinner,but it was worth it and satisfying.
And as i really should turn in and get some beauty sleep,Aurevoir!! (which means goodbye in French..i just checked in my notes..lol).
Friday, May 23, 2008
Attention Ppl!!
Hey people, if you are young and fun and simply into fashion..well not only for the sake of looking good but also to appear presentable then let me introduce to you...
For Him.....http://especially-4-u-station.blogspot.com
For Her.....http://style-shopaholic.blogspot.com
Knock yourself out and have fun!!
(p/s: fren fren...you know you damn love me de...xoxo!!)
For Him.....http://especially-4-u-station.blogspot.com
For Her.....http://style-shopaholic.blogspot.com
Knock yourself out and have fun!!
(p/s: fren fren...you know you damn love me de...xoxo!!)
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
God Bless Us!
I'm now exhausted and tired from work.But i have the strongest ever urge to blog this.Like we all know,two natural disasters have hit China and Myanmar recently.And when natures hit,they can cause really severe impact,in fact they already did.The Cyclone Nargis in Myanmar have taken away so many precious lives and left its people injured,homeless and devastated from the loss of their loves one.The city was reduced to almost nothing but ruins.What was more ironic i read from some where was that even though help are pouring into the country,some of the aid organisation and agency actually have to beg the military government to let them in to help.While the massive earthquake in the Sichuan province in China measuring to a magnitude of 7.9 if i'm not mistaken has shocked the entire nation.Not only was it the most serious earth quake to occur for the last three decades,but the even more pressing issue now is that aid cannot be efficiently delivered to the worst struck area due to the main access road being blocked by wreckage from the earthquake.
It was so heartbreaking and devastating to look at the state of the victims both dead and alive.I was watching this live broadcast from China, i see how the rescue team tried to dig out people buried in the debris,there was a school that collapsed and killed 900 school children and teachers,people was injured,bloody,tired, hungry,cold and above all scared.There were people who cried and broke down beside the corpse of their loves one.There were also hundreds of people who actually have to take refuge besides piles and piles of dead bodies because the aid agency is too busy attending to the ones alive. Imagine the kind of pain and fear that situation would have inflicted on any human.Children are crying,adults are sobbing...but what can they do.Basically nothing but wait,wait for more help to arrive,wait for their family to appear safe and sound before their eyes,wait for food ,wait for medical aid,wait for a miracle to stop this nightmare.How hopeless the world must have seemed to them.
And yet,one may wonder why is this happening?Why are these horrible things keep happening to human beings?I dunno how u look at it,but deep down in my heart i keep having the feelings that mother earth is actually reacting to all the damages we have done to her.She is starting to avenge us, punishing us for not appreciating for all we did was take but never to give.Think about it,first tsunami then this,god knows if its gonna snow in Thailand!I know they call it the natural disasters..it was unforeseen and unexpected.But get a grip!With that much of damages done to the environment,all the green house gases,carbon dioxide,cleared forest,and tonnes and tonnes of biologically undegradable rubbish that we created,one can NEVER expect earth to be like how it was 30 years back.That would simply be foolish and ilogical.Somehow i just instinctively tied these disasters to all the things we did and didnt do for environment.I may be wrong for all reasons,and i wish it was too.At least then we can clear our conscience and say that was completely none of our(human beings) fault.But keep in mind,living in denial will not lead you anywhere.
I know it is way too cliche these days if you tell people to seriously think about what u can do for environment.Be it recycle,save water and electricity,reduce the usage of plastic...anything at all.It might not seemed like a big deal to not recycle after all everybody is like that.Nobody is doing it so why bothered?Wrong wrong wrong!!It doesnt matter if you cant get the entire neighbourhood to do it,nobody can change the world overnight but the important thing is you wanting to be a part of it,you making an effort no matter how insignificant you think it is.Do something,make a difference.There is still an option for us now,dun wait till we ran out of it.
It was so heartbreaking and devastating to look at the state of the victims both dead and alive.I was watching this live broadcast from China, i see how the rescue team tried to dig out people buried in the debris,there was a school that collapsed and killed 900 school children and teachers,people was injured,bloody,tired, hungry,cold and above all scared.There were people who cried and broke down beside the corpse of their loves one.There were also hundreds of people who actually have to take refuge besides piles and piles of dead bodies because the aid agency is too busy attending to the ones alive. Imagine the kind of pain and fear that situation would have inflicted on any human.Children are crying,adults are sobbing...but what can they do.Basically nothing but wait,wait for more help to arrive,wait for their family to appear safe and sound before their eyes,wait for food ,wait for medical aid,wait for a miracle to stop this nightmare.How hopeless the world must have seemed to them.
And yet,one may wonder why is this happening?Why are these horrible things keep happening to human beings?I dunno how u look at it,but deep down in my heart i keep having the feelings that mother earth is actually reacting to all the damages we have done to her.She is starting to avenge us, punishing us for not appreciating for all we did was take but never to give.Think about it,first tsunami then this,god knows if its gonna snow in Thailand!I know they call it the natural disasters..it was unforeseen and unexpected.But get a grip!With that much of damages done to the environment,all the green house gases,carbon dioxide,cleared forest,and tonnes and tonnes of biologically undegradable rubbish that we created,one can NEVER expect earth to be like how it was 30 years back.That would simply be foolish and ilogical.Somehow i just instinctively tied these disasters to all the things we did and didnt do for environment.I may be wrong for all reasons,and i wish it was too.At least then we can clear our conscience and say that was completely none of our(human beings) fault.But keep in mind,living in denial will not lead you anywhere.
I know it is way too cliche these days if you tell people to seriously think about what u can do for environment.Be it recycle,save water and electricity,reduce the usage of plastic...anything at all.It might not seemed like a big deal to not recycle after all everybody is like that.Nobody is doing it so why bothered?Wrong wrong wrong!!It doesnt matter if you cant get the entire neighbourhood to do it,nobody can change the world overnight but the important thing is you wanting to be a part of it,you making an effort no matter how insignificant you think it is.Do something,make a difference.There is still an option for us now,dun wait till we ran out of it.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
The Last & First Day
Today would be the last day of me being 19 years old,in fact i'm just 1 hour away from turning 20.So it means i'm saying goodbye to the last 19 years and hello to a new stage....the 20's.They say if u get on to 20,it will be like just a blink of an eye when u hit 29 then 30 then older and older...erm pretty true,time really flies especially when u dun pay attention to it.I still remember vividly going to school on the 1st day then wondering how was i going to be when i hit 18..then "BOOM!!"..i'm turning 20 in just TOMORROW.
Lets just put it this way,2007 has not really been a fabulous year for me.I didnt give it all my best for my studies from the beginning and thus resulted in a mere satisfactory results.I didnt set my priority straight and caused myself to stray too far away from my real goal.I indulge too much in pleasure and gave insufficient attention to the serious business.I have also some other incidents which can only be said as too unlucky!..But besides that the lesson i have learnt is that i m not determined enough,didnt not give enough effort and probably just aint intelligent enough to notice it earlier...But hell screw it! I cant rewind and undo all the mistakes i did nor can i just copy and paste previous successes.So there really is no point looking back and whine.The faster u can find out about your mistakes, and the faster u chose to deal with it and change it,the faster u can move on in your life,and therefore the faster u can expect the next best thing to happen.
So wat i'm saying is that...no matter how badly i have fell when i'm 19 ...i got up from it.I manage to keep my chin up and say.."I know i screwed up..i'll just make sure i wont do that again."I think thats good enough at least for me it is.
So i'm kind of glad my 20th birthday is here.Its like closing one door behind you...but bring together the lesson u have learnt and all the great memories with extraordinary people i have met along the way..all the wonderful things i have done..and open another door right in front of you which i have no idea now which way it will lead me to.The feeling of a new found confidence and some new thoughts to fill into the missing place deep under is beyond any words can ever describe.
So...hey 20's!!I'm coming!!
Lets just put it this way,2007 has not really been a fabulous year for me.I didnt give it all my best for my studies from the beginning and thus resulted in a mere satisfactory results.I didnt set my priority straight and caused myself to stray too far away from my real goal.I indulge too much in pleasure and gave insufficient attention to the serious business.I have also some other incidents which can only be said as too unlucky!..But besides that the lesson i have learnt is that i m not determined enough,didnt not give enough effort and probably just aint intelligent enough to notice it earlier...But hell screw it! I cant rewind and undo all the mistakes i did nor can i just copy and paste previous successes.So there really is no point looking back and whine.The faster u can find out about your mistakes, and the faster u chose to deal with it and change it,the faster u can move on in your life,and therefore the faster u can expect the next best thing to happen.
So wat i'm saying is that...no matter how badly i have fell when i'm 19 ...i got up from it.I manage to keep my chin up and say.."I know i screwed up..i'll just make sure i wont do that again."I think thats good enough at least for me it is.
So i'm kind of glad my 20th birthday is here.Its like closing one door behind you...but bring together the lesson u have learnt and all the great memories with extraordinary people i have met along the way..all the wonderful things i have done..and open another door right in front of you which i have no idea now which way it will lead me to.The feeling of a new found confidence and some new thoughts to fill into the missing place deep under is beyond any words can ever describe.
So...hey 20's!!I'm coming!!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Damn Indians!! (p/s: i'm not a racist)
Today was one hell of a day....
There was this young indian guy who came up to my working place and started looking for somebody that doesnt really exist.Then minutes later,he came back up with another friend asking me the same damn question!God,i m so mad at myself that that wasnt enough to raise my alarm.Then minutes later when these two "good for nothing","disgrace of society",......and blardy bastards that are total rubbish..(And please do me the favour of fitting any more nasty words)are shoo-ed from my place.I realised my phone which was placed on the table was gone.
I started panicking...then fumble in my bag,call my phone and my phone was still no where to be found.I told my boss...and we both rushed down to see if those 2 idiots are still there...Well deep down...we know those idiots wont be as idiotic as we thought...and the chances of finding them and my phone were less than zero.And soon we have to give up.Damn!
What happens next,i believe you can paint the picture yourself.Get a little nagging from your parents...lodged a police report...have that sim card blocked...lost a nice phone..All these damn things because of my own blunder and of course those 2 indians.On the way back, i just cant stop scolding and cursing them both..hating them so deeply and cursing them whatever they steal from me and others..they ll lose more in the end....all the pain and trouble they caused...they have worse in return.I was filled with anger most on them then a part of it on me.My boss says sometimes i'm just too naive while my dad says i'm just too kind and expect no one but good guys and fine ladies to cross my path...tat there were no such things as bad guys who do bad things.Haih now that really hurts.
But what really broke my heart came after that.When i thought of all the messages that i have kept for months..all the unsaved pictures...all the lost contacts..and of course my beautiful phone which was also a birthday present.Haih...this is just so unfair!! Why do i deserve this?I never do anything harmful to anyone...Why do bad things like this happen to good people?
What makes me feel worse is that i get emotionally attached to an item easily.I value them not only for their price but for all the meanings and memories they carry.For example,my little grey teddy bear,I love him so much beyond everything despite the fact that it looked really old and worn out already because he has been my bestest fren since forever even before i can speak,he was sleeping beside me..See it wasnt the material but the memories that makes it priceless.Haih and now..i look at the phone my fren borrowed me,then i thought of the moment me n my frens hang on the phone for so long that i have to hang up because i felt my ear was burning..all the sweet and lame sms...my pictures!!! All gone!!GONE!
Haih...i just felt so bad.But i do appreciate the effort my parents and mitchell did to cheer me up..especially my mum."Let them fall and roll off the stairs and have their front teeth broken!"..."Let them have their hands hurt and ankles sprained!...Haha my mum...not too bad sometimes.
There was this young indian guy who came up to my working place and started looking for somebody that doesnt really exist.Then minutes later,he came back up with another friend asking me the same damn question!God,i m so mad at myself that that wasnt enough to raise my alarm.Then minutes later when these two "good for nothing","disgrace of society",......and blardy bastards that are total rubbish..(And please do me the favour of fitting any more nasty words)are shoo-ed from my place.I realised my phone which was placed on the table was gone.
I started panicking...then fumble in my bag,call my phone and my phone was still no where to be found.I told my boss...and we both rushed down to see if those 2 idiots are still there...Well deep down...we know those idiots wont be as idiotic as we thought...and the chances of finding them and my phone were less than zero.And soon we have to give up.Damn!
What happens next,i believe you can paint the picture yourself.Get a little nagging from your parents...lodged a police report...have that sim card blocked...lost a nice phone..All these damn things because of my own blunder and of course those 2 indians.On the way back, i just cant stop scolding and cursing them both..hating them so deeply and cursing them whatever they steal from me and others..they ll lose more in the end....all the pain and trouble they caused...they have worse in return.I was filled with anger most on them then a part of it on me.My boss says sometimes i'm just too naive while my dad says i'm just too kind and expect no one but good guys and fine ladies to cross my path...tat there were no such things as bad guys who do bad things.Haih now that really hurts.
But what really broke my heart came after that.When i thought of all the messages that i have kept for months..all the unsaved pictures...all the lost contacts..and of course my beautiful phone which was also a birthday present.Haih...this is just so unfair!! Why do i deserve this?I never do anything harmful to anyone...Why do bad things like this happen to good people?
What makes me feel worse is that i get emotionally attached to an item easily.I value them not only for their price but for all the meanings and memories they carry.For example,my little grey teddy bear,I love him so much beyond everything despite the fact that it looked really old and worn out already because he has been my bestest fren since forever even before i can speak,he was sleeping beside me..See it wasnt the material but the memories that makes it priceless.Haih and now..i look at the phone my fren borrowed me,then i thought of the moment me n my frens hang on the phone for so long that i have to hang up because i felt my ear was burning..all the sweet and lame sms...my pictures!!! All gone!!GONE!
Haih...i just felt so bad.But i do appreciate the effort my parents and mitchell did to cheer me up..especially my mum."Let them fall and roll off the stairs and have their front teeth broken!"..."Let them have their hands hurt and ankles sprained!...Haha my mum...not too bad sometimes.
