I am so manly today. Seriously..no joke. Imagine me in a yellow safety helmet and slightly oversized protective boots marching into the loading area with a camera in one hand and a file in another.Then, sitting on some wood plank examining the finished goods. Even when a cockroach came out of nowhere and was attempting to climb up my hand...i merely shrugged it off (no scream no yerrr whatsoever)...talk about doing it with style and attitude!!LOL..i have a lot to thank the cockroaches at home for training my guts!
Anyway today was the 2nd day of my internship..and it was a whole lot more fulfilling than yesterday whereby a big part of my afternoon was spent reading manuals. Am absolutely loving the physical and intellectual challenge! Haven't felt this exhausted for a good cause for so damn long!
Well i still don't have much clue how the coming months will be..but i'm confident its gonna be quite interesting!I can hear the million dollars machine calling me already!!
Cheers to many more fulfilling days ahead!! Together, we brew success!!
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
To my dearest godfather.
To my dearest godfather, Uncle Thoo,
Hope you and Aunty Thoo are in the pink of health. Here's a book i bought with my pocket money and i would love to present it to you as a belated birthday present.
Thank you for being such a fatherly figure in my life. You and Aunty Thoo are worthy of all the love and respect in the world! Thank you for letting me know that the world could be mine. Your words of encouragement got me through the time when i doubted myself.I don't think i could ever reciprocate enough, your love and kindness.
So please continue to stay in good health! More books are on the way!
Hope you will enjoy reading this book like i always did with all the magazines you generously subscribed for me!
Look forward to visiting you and Aunty Thoo in Kuching soon!
Love,
Ying Ying
24/4/2011
(p/s: my dad said people from peninsular Malaysia are not as warm as people from Kuching..i beg to differ..in my case, i'm just very selective about who i want to show my love and warmth to.)
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Privacy? Really?
Watching CNN always remind me of a dream that i had. To be a newscaster, to be an anchorwoman, to have a one hour show in my name. Can't tell you how much it flatters and fuels my ego when my classmate refers me as Oprah. Ok..talk show host or anchorwoman..i'm flexible!
But then my childhood dream( still is my dream) is not the point in this entry. While i was listening to CNN and also multitasking at the same time, something caught my ears..the host ( a particularly good looking one) was commenting on how social media is actually stripping our privacy.
Interesting i taught. And out of boredom, i decided to verify for myself if it is as easy or more difficult that what they told us. Of course, i'm just playing the role of a nosy person and not super good hacker, guess that is a whole new context.So where best to start but Facebook!
I started typing in a name.Half of us on fb allows only friends to see our wall and our info. But still i come across an account of "Someone" that allows me to see everything..wall..posts...photos..friends..u name it.
I sure never meet this person before..but imagine what i can find out via facebook. A complete stranger can see where you're from..where do you live..where do you study..whats your mother's name, sister's name..when is your birthday..And all of these are in the first glance..
If i look deeper..i can tell what course are you doing..what club/society you're in..who is your room mate..which hostel you're in..who's your best buddies..your relationship status..
At this point of course, my patience run out. But i think it is clear to everyone how we're exposing bits and pieces of ourselves via social media like facebook, twitter and even our blogs. People can find out so much about us with a few clicks..that is assuming you leave a virtual footprint which would include more than 80% of the gen y. After all, there's got to be a reason why Mark Zuckerberg is so so rich. That's not the end yet..if i'm a hacker (hypothetically speaking)..credit card info, all your purchase be it books or movie tickets will be at the back of my hand.
We gotta realize with a tool that helps us to record our lives and interact with others, we are also inevitably stripping ourselves of our privacy.It is ridiculous to deactivate an account..ask any of the current users. Most will ridicule this idea because we have built either useful or huge virtual network. You got to understand the charm of connecting with people from ALL over the world for FREE and in such an interactive way.
So i know it is impossible to leave social media behind,it will be like discarding our cherished memories altogether( anyone remembers friendster?). But do yourself a favor, at least go look into your privacy setting and see if you're okay with it.
Lucky for my case study, i am just a blogger not a virtual stalker.
But then my childhood dream( still is my dream) is not the point in this entry. While i was listening to CNN and also multitasking at the same time, something caught my ears..the host ( a particularly good looking one) was commenting on how social media is actually stripping our privacy.
Interesting i taught. And out of boredom, i decided to verify for myself if it is as easy or more difficult that what they told us. Of course, i'm just playing the role of a nosy person and not super good hacker, guess that is a whole new context.So where best to start but Facebook!
I started typing in a name.Half of us on fb allows only friends to see our wall and our info. But still i come across an account of "Someone" that allows me to see everything..wall..posts...photos..friends..u name it.
I sure never meet this person before..but imagine what i can find out via facebook. A complete stranger can see where you're from..where do you live..where do you study..whats your mother's name, sister's name..when is your birthday..And all of these are in the first glance..
If i look deeper..i can tell what course are you doing..what club/society you're in..who is your room mate..which hostel you're in..who's your best buddies..your relationship status..
At this point of course, my patience run out. But i think it is clear to everyone how we're exposing bits and pieces of ourselves via social media like facebook, twitter and even our blogs. People can find out so much about us with a few clicks..that is assuming you leave a virtual footprint which would include more than 80% of the gen y. After all, there's got to be a reason why Mark Zuckerberg is so so rich. That's not the end yet..if i'm a hacker (hypothetically speaking)..credit card info, all your purchase be it books or movie tickets will be at the back of my hand.
We gotta realize with a tool that helps us to record our lives and interact with others, we are also inevitably stripping ourselves of our privacy.It is ridiculous to deactivate an account..ask any of the current users. Most will ridicule this idea because we have built either useful or huge virtual network. You got to understand the charm of connecting with people from ALL over the world for FREE and in such an interactive way.
So i know it is impossible to leave social media behind,it will be like discarding our cherished memories altogether( anyone remembers friendster?). But do yourself a favor, at least go look into your privacy setting and see if you're okay with it.
Lucky for my case study, i am just a blogger not a virtual stalker.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Happy Chinese New Year!
It is nothing new to say that Chinese New Year seems to be so much more different now than when we were 10 years old. When we were 10 years old, CNY is THE time, in fact THE BEST time. It is when we go out with parents to get brand new clothes, get lots ang paus from relatives, having to wait while our parents chit chat with their friends during visits while finishing all their choc cookies. As for me, i remembered memorizing some Teochew "gong xi fa cai" so i can re-chant it to my grandpa. It was very very joyous.
Of course, it is still a very joyous festival. We still buy brand new clothes, we still get ang paus, we still do relative visits..but despite the all-too-convincing "still"s I cant help but realized something changed. We still love CNY of course, but we cant deny a big factor of that affection is because we get 1 whole week of holidays for it. We are excited in some way for it, but we no longer have that adrenaline pumping, heart beating super fast moment when we hear the fireworks.
Perhaps we grow up or perhaps we grow out of the CNY cliche...either ways are sad..
I hope it is not too weird coming from my mouth, CNY is still a great and huge tradition we Chinese should always remember and live up to. If ever you're like me, even for one second doubt the meaning of CNY, maybe it will do us good to perhaps drop by at Chinatown to see with our own eyes, how this thousand years old tradition managed to so effortlessly give us all reason to be happy.
And if that wasnt enough, you can still count on the scrumptious yee-sang, beer/wine drinking with your friends, and jin rummy/mahjong to cheer you up!
See really...there is no reason why we shouldn't enjoy ourselves!
Happy Chinese New Year!
Of course, it is still a very joyous festival. We still buy brand new clothes, we still get ang paus, we still do relative visits..but despite the all-too-convincing "still"s I cant help but realized something changed. We still love CNY of course, but we cant deny a big factor of that affection is because we get 1 whole week of holidays for it. We are excited in some way for it, but we no longer have that adrenaline pumping, heart beating super fast moment when we hear the fireworks.
Perhaps we grow up or perhaps we grow out of the CNY cliche...either ways are sad..
I hope it is not too weird coming from my mouth, CNY is still a great and huge tradition we Chinese should always remember and live up to. If ever you're like me, even for one second doubt the meaning of CNY, maybe it will do us good to perhaps drop by at Chinatown to see with our own eyes, how this thousand years old tradition managed to so effortlessly give us all reason to be happy.
And if that wasnt enough, you can still count on the scrumptious yee-sang, beer/wine drinking with your friends, and jin rummy/mahjong to cheer you up!
See really...there is no reason why we shouldn't enjoy ourselves!
Happy Chinese New Year!
Monday, January 24, 2011
The Jogging Experience
Wow i think i'm sort of impressed by myself..i went jogging after class with 2 good friends.And yes please dont doubt this, it is definitely OH-MY-GOSH worthy on my behalf!I'm the last person who will want to carry out the idea of an evening jog even my neighbour whom i bumped into in the park was genuinely surprised to see me.
And the jogging experience confirms beyond a doubt that i am indeed super unfit! it only took less than 5 minutes of slow jogging to get me hyperventilating.And when my jogging buddies came, it took less than 30 seconds for them to outjog me and for me to lose sight of them! And yes i am deeply ashamed as this level of fitness is appalling for a 23 year-old.
Even though i stayed in the park for half an hour, less than 10 minutes was the actual "jogging"..i'll like to call it "leisure walking" or "brisk walking"..you get the picture right..=P
So whats the remedy? If god is willing, i'm going to be jogging every Monday after class. A battle has just begun, its my laziness and cravings against exercise regime! At the moment, I'll like to think exercise regime is on the winning side, after all i did switched that roti canai with papaya for supper!
God bless me.=)
And the jogging experience confirms beyond a doubt that i am indeed super unfit! it only took less than 5 minutes of slow jogging to get me hyperventilating.And when my jogging buddies came, it took less than 30 seconds for them to outjog me and for me to lose sight of them! And yes i am deeply ashamed as this level of fitness is appalling for a 23 year-old.
Even though i stayed in the park for half an hour, less than 10 minutes was the actual "jogging"..i'll like to call it "leisure walking" or "brisk walking"..you get the picture right..=P
So whats the remedy? If god is willing, i'm going to be jogging every Monday after class. A battle has just begun, its my laziness and cravings against exercise regime! At the moment, I'll like to think exercise regime is on the winning side, after all i did switched that roti canai with papaya for supper!
God bless me.=)
Monday, January 17, 2011
My Rule This Time
Ok..i had enough of formulas/equations/laws (from a lot geniuses whose name i cant even pronounce )to last me a lifetime..but now now my turn to get creative..Allow me to introduce to the world Ying Ling's Rule of Good Chances of Success both in the chemistry labs and when you're 23 years old.
Now when you're in the labs, from Ying Ling's Rule of Good Chances of Success came the following equation:
Now if we can translate this to real life, it would probably be:
Immunity to people who brings you down/pull you low +
Ability to withstand overwhelming criticism +
Ability to persist/to not waver in the face of adversity +
Wisdom to face failures due to back luck+
Courage to admit that sometimes you're not good enough +
Ability to create your own dreams and paths
=GOOD CHANCES OF SUCCESS
See, life does emulates chemistry in some ways.
Disclaimer : The one who derives these laws is not yet successful, but there is a good chance she will. After all, if you went through enough screw-ups, you're bound to come across thumbs-ups some day. I'm just clocking in on screw-ups just so you know.=)
For the wonderful day waiting for me tomorrow..cheers!
Now when you're in the labs, from Ying Ling's Rule of Good Chances of Success came the following equation:
Good immunity towards super bad smell +
Ability to withstand overwhelming annoyance from demonstrators +
Ability to stand for 6 hours straight +
Wisdom to face failures due to bad luck+
Courage to face failures due to bad skills+
Ability to resist the temptation to copy senior's reports
= GOOD CHANCES OF SUCCESS
Ability to withstand overwhelming annoyance from demonstrators +
Ability to stand for 6 hours straight +
Wisdom to face failures due to bad luck+
Courage to face failures due to bad skills+
Ability to resist the temptation to copy senior's reports
= GOOD CHANCES OF SUCCESS
Now if we can translate this to real life, it would probably be:
Immunity to people who brings you down/pull you low +
Ability to withstand overwhelming criticism +
Ability to persist/to not waver in the face of adversity +
Wisdom to face failures due to back luck+
Courage to admit that sometimes you're not good enough +
Ability to create your own dreams and paths
=GOOD CHANCES OF SUCCESS
See, life does emulates chemistry in some ways.
Disclaimer : The one who derives these laws is not yet successful, but there is a good chance she will. After all, if you went through enough screw-ups, you're bound to come across thumbs-ups some day. I'm just clocking in on screw-ups just so you know.=)
For the wonderful day waiting for me tomorrow..cheers!
Monday, January 10, 2011
Science,Technology and Media
It has been one week since university started and all was well so far.I have some pretty wacky lecturers and some very cool sounding chemical technology along the way but still i think i can handle it alright.
But there was one subject that really interest me!As the title of this entry implies, yes so far my favorite is science technology and media. Not because it gives me a much needed break away from chemistry but the fact that this subject and our lecturer, Ms Yasmin Rasyid(also founder of The EcoKnights) challenge my point of view beyond any other discipline areas. She never stops to encourage us to look at both sides of the coin when it comes to all the news we get from any form of media and its true the fact that we especially students have grown so complacent in accepting any kind of message without second thought.
When we take a deeper look into media and communication, it is easy to realize that the combination of both has affected so much of our lives from the way we think, right down to the kind of phones we buy. It has a huge role in our lives with or without us knowing. But the problem is this, quoting Ms Yasmin , " The one who owns the media has power like the one who runs the country", a statement which i strongly agree! The media can paint a pretty picture and has the magic ability to turn an ordinary girl into a princess OR it can tear you down and reduce you to nothing but an ugly frog. Hence it is so imperative to analyze all the information from all angles and sources and to actually question them. We need to have the ability to analyze, collect information, interpret and attempt to put it in the big picture and think for ourselves if it is fit and logic. And above all, we have to stop being so complacent and easy going in the things we deem as the truth, what this course has taught me so far is that, we have to stop blindly digesting all sorts of information and really take the time to ponder and examine its truthfulness!
I have a strong feeling i'm really going to enjoy myself in this class! Finally something that could significantly expand my horizons and revolutionize my mindset! God! I am seriously anticipating this intellectual challenge!
Go check out
http://www.ecoknights.org.my/component/option,com_frontpage/Itemid,1/
http://1hijau.tv/
Till the next time! xoxo!
But there was one subject that really interest me!As the title of this entry implies, yes so far my favorite is science technology and media. Not because it gives me a much needed break away from chemistry but the fact that this subject and our lecturer, Ms Yasmin Rasyid(also founder of The EcoKnights) challenge my point of view beyond any other discipline areas. She never stops to encourage us to look at both sides of the coin when it comes to all the news we get from any form of media and its true the fact that we especially students have grown so complacent in accepting any kind of message without second thought.
When we take a deeper look into media and communication, it is easy to realize that the combination of both has affected so much of our lives from the way we think, right down to the kind of phones we buy. It has a huge role in our lives with or without us knowing. But the problem is this, quoting Ms Yasmin , " The one who owns the media has power like the one who runs the country", a statement which i strongly agree! The media can paint a pretty picture and has the magic ability to turn an ordinary girl into a princess OR it can tear you down and reduce you to nothing but an ugly frog. Hence it is so imperative to analyze all the information from all angles and sources and to actually question them. We need to have the ability to analyze, collect information, interpret and attempt to put it in the big picture and think for ourselves if it is fit and logic. And above all, we have to stop being so complacent and easy going in the things we deem as the truth, what this course has taught me so far is that, we have to stop blindly digesting all sorts of information and really take the time to ponder and examine its truthfulness!
I have a strong feeling i'm really going to enjoy myself in this class! Finally something that could significantly expand my horizons and revolutionize my mindset! God! I am seriously anticipating this intellectual challenge!
Go check out
http://www.ecoknights.org.my/component/option,com_frontpage/Itemid,1/
http://1hijau.tv/
Till the next time! xoxo!
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Hey God!
Few days back when UM was having UniEdu bookfair,my friends and i were approached by a very grandmotherly looking lady.Turns out she's from Tzu Chi and was very enthusiastically inviting us over to Tzu Chi Year End Blessing which took place tonight at the KL Convention Centre.
Since i would be around KL anyway..so i agreed i'll drop by together with a friend and mum. My mum really enjoyed it as the whole organization was very much in alignment with her religion beliefs and faith. But as for me, my view on religion is very much different.
I believe in God..the mighty powerful and wise God.I dont think any blessing is a coincidence, like the other day, when i was driving and almost involved in a close head-on collision with a Kancil but then i didnt..i drove away unscathed, the driver and i managed to brake on time to avoid any kind of damage to both sides. So listen to this, i dont think it is just mere luck that i got away fine, i think be it God, angel or guardian, i was definitely watched over and protected and for that i give thanks.
So i dont doubt the power of God nor the presence of God..i think it surely exist.There has got to be a power higher than us, how else can we explain the difference of path of every individual then the plan of God to put different crayons in our hand to colour our own canvas of life.It is up to us to see God in even a grain of sand and in the most magnificient of beauty.
And back to Tzu Chi, sure it did opened me up to different horizons..the international relief efforts be it in the Pakistan flood or Haiti Earthquake and many others were most impressive and admirable! Maybe i would wanna sign up as a volunteer after i graduate..it must be great the feeling of dedicating to something other than ourselves! And the blessing ang-pao was very nice too.=)
But anyhow..i'm still open to all views and very respectful of all the existing religions in Malaysia. All religions teach us well thus all religions are perfect, the flaws are only in the followers.So no debate on any religion is necessary,after all it is up to individual to decide where you want to lay your faith on.
And please God, continue to blessing me and give me the strength to deal with all the idiots that may cross my path.
Am loving ya.
Since i would be around KL anyway..so i agreed i'll drop by together with a friend and mum. My mum really enjoyed it as the whole organization was very much in alignment with her religion beliefs and faith. But as for me, my view on religion is very much different.
I believe in God..the mighty powerful and wise God.I dont think any blessing is a coincidence, like the other day, when i was driving and almost involved in a close head-on collision with a Kancil but then i didnt..i drove away unscathed, the driver and i managed to brake on time to avoid any kind of damage to both sides. So listen to this, i dont think it is just mere luck that i got away fine, i think be it God, angel or guardian, i was definitely watched over and protected and for that i give thanks.
So i dont doubt the power of God nor the presence of God..i think it surely exist.There has got to be a power higher than us, how else can we explain the difference of path of every individual then the plan of God to put different crayons in our hand to colour our own canvas of life.It is up to us to see God in even a grain of sand and in the most magnificient of beauty.
And back to Tzu Chi, sure it did opened me up to different horizons..the international relief efforts be it in the Pakistan flood or Haiti Earthquake and many others were most impressive and admirable! Maybe i would wanna sign up as a volunteer after i graduate..it must be great the feeling of dedicating to something other than ourselves! And the blessing ang-pao was very nice too.=)
But anyhow..i'm still open to all views and very respectful of all the existing religions in Malaysia. All religions teach us well thus all religions are perfect, the flaws are only in the followers.So no debate on any religion is necessary,after all it is up to individual to decide where you want to lay your faith on.
And please God, continue to blessing me and give me the strength to deal with all the idiots that may cross my path.
Am loving ya.
Friday, January 7, 2011
Love Letters
Remember Carrie Bradshaw? Who doesnt right..Sarah Jessica Parker was so gorgeous head to toe in Sex in the City..and that 2500$ heels..wait wait i'm going too far..The point is there was one scene that really got stuck in my mind..it was the scene where Carrie was lying on the bed reading and sharing the content of a love letter with Mr Big at her side..*squeal!!*..this is just so overdosed with romance it should be illegal!
But anyway the most important thing is i got a hold of the book!Apparently it was just a film prop in the beginning meaning there's really no such book..but some publisher has managed to take the advantage of the story line and compile some good pieces and boom! i bet they have good sales after the movie!Its titled "Love Letters by Great Men"..i've just started but it is just the kind of book that will provide you with light drama and some entertainment and a lot " sigh this is so romantic" moment. I highly recommend this to the cynics that says they dont believe in love..afterall this proof over centuries ago..time for someone to put your faith in the right place huh..
Anyone this one is my fav so far..
But anyway the most important thing is i got a hold of the book!Apparently it was just a film prop in the beginning meaning there's really no such book..but some publisher has managed to take the advantage of the story line and compile some good pieces and boom! i bet they have good sales after the movie!Its titled "Love Letters by Great Men"..i've just started but it is just the kind of book that will provide you with light drama and some entertainment and a lot " sigh this is so romantic" moment. I highly recommend this to the cynics that says they dont believe in love..afterall this proof over centuries ago..time for someone to put your faith in the right place huh..Anyone this one is my fav so far..
"Canst thou change it,
that thou are not entirely mine,
I not entirely thine?Oh God,
look into the beautiful nature and
compose your mind of the inevitable."
"What longing in tears for you
You-my Life-my All,
farewell.Oh go on loving me,
never doubt the faithfullest heart.
Of your beloved,L.
Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.
that thou are not entirely mine,
I not entirely thine?Oh God,
look into the beautiful nature and
compose your mind of the inevitable."
"What longing in tears for you
You-my Life-my All,
farewell.Oh go on loving me,
never doubt the faithfullest heart.
Of your beloved,L.
Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.
From Beethoven to his Immortal Beloved.Give love letters a chance at least they're better than emails and texts which become the death of romance, qouting the editor Ursula Doyle!
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Who am I?
Well..look at my blog! It has a new look and i'm loving it! So as usual this is the time for new year resolution..so here we go..
Let start with what i have accomplished in 2010..may i just stress that one of my most proud of achievement includes cutting my hair..now now not just trimming..i have chopped off i think 2/3 of its original length..Thinking back..i didnt quite know what got into me..i was sporting a damn long hair for a while..it took some crazy and ''brain not working'' moment for me to pull it off on myself!
And what?! Oh I PASSED ALL SUBJECTS EXCLAMATION MARK(even got A for some =P)
Besides some random sometimes meaningless stuff that i have done..i guess one of the most profound change that happened to me is that i have opened up my eyes and mind to the entrepreneurial, finance, business world..i no longer think that i am just meant to be a chemist or any other random job..instead i can and indeed should go after my wildest dream!! i am capable of being the female Mark Zuckerberg, i am capable of owning something worth billions of dollars, i am capable of changing the world or be a market changer and etc.. Suddenly it dawned on me that i can do anything and be anything that i want and only if i want it badly and the world is so much more that what you can perceive from your text books or even from your parents (cough cough sometimes rather shallow and timid opinions)p/s: dad if u ever read this! I love ya lots!..And this revelation changes everything!
So what new year resolution should i be setting? None! nobody ever fulfill all of their resolutions(me included)! So i'm not gonna be bothered this time..
But i do know now who i want to be this year.
Its probably gonna take more than 2011 to achieve it but if the world doesn't end in 2012 i'll have a big fat chance of being the best Ying Ling could be!
So besides Ying Ling feel free to call me the
Aspiring Future Warren Buffett
Aspiring Future Mark Zuckerberg
Aspiring Future Category Creator
Aspiring Future Changer
Aspiring Future Entrepreneur of the year
Aspiring Future Bestseller Author
Desperately Aspiring Future Billionaire!
I wont be too ~dreamy now~ i know its gonna take more screw ups then all the total screw ups in the past 22 years..but heck i'm going to press on till my last breath! So my dear friends! Lets stay healthy together!
Cos our BEST DAYS are definitely ahead us!
Happy new year! We're so owning 2011!
Let start with what i have accomplished in 2010..may i just stress that one of my most proud of achievement includes cutting my hair..now now not just trimming..i have chopped off i think 2/3 of its original length..Thinking back..i didnt quite know what got into me..i was sporting a damn long hair for a while..it took some crazy and ''brain not working'' moment for me to pull it off on myself!
And what?! Oh I PASSED ALL SUBJECTS EXCLAMATION MARK(even got A for some =P)
Besides some random sometimes meaningless stuff that i have done..i guess one of the most profound change that happened to me is that i have opened up my eyes and mind to the entrepreneurial, finance, business world..i no longer think that i am just meant to be a chemist or any other random job..instead i can and indeed should go after my wildest dream!! i am capable of being the female Mark Zuckerberg, i am capable of owning something worth billions of dollars, i am capable of changing the world or be a market changer and etc.. Suddenly it dawned on me that i can do anything and be anything that i want and only if i want it badly and the world is so much more that what you can perceive from your text books or even from your parents (cough cough sometimes rather shallow and timid opinions)p/s: dad if u ever read this! I love ya lots!..And this revelation changes everything!
So what new year resolution should i be setting? None! nobody ever fulfill all of their resolutions(me included)! So i'm not gonna be bothered this time..
But i do know now who i want to be this year.
Its probably gonna take more than 2011 to achieve it but if the world doesn't end in 2012 i'll have a big fat chance of being the best Ying Ling could be!
So besides Ying Ling feel free to call me the
Aspiring Future Warren Buffett
Aspiring Future Mark Zuckerberg
Aspiring Future Category Creator
Aspiring Future Changer
Aspiring Future Entrepreneur of the year
Aspiring Future Bestseller Author
Desperately Aspiring Future Billionaire!
I wont be too ~dreamy now~ i know its gonna take more screw ups then all the total screw ups in the past 22 years..but heck i'm going to press on till my last breath! So my dear friends! Lets stay healthy together!
Cos our BEST DAYS are definitely ahead us!
Happy new year! We're so owning 2011!
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
3 things
Anonymous : 3 things real men can't say, I'm wrong, I'm lost, I can't fix it.
Me : 3 things i can't bring myself to say now, You're wrong, You disappointed me, What happened to us?
Me : 3 things i can't bring myself to say now, You're wrong, You disappointed me, What happened to us?
Sunday, May 30, 2010
My Mama
I love ya , my mama!
For you are the best listener,
For you are the best supporter,
For you have always tried to be the best mother.
I love ya, my mama!
For you throw out your doubts for me,
For you believing me at all cost,
For you have always respected my decisions,
For you have never demanded anything more than i can be.
I love ya , my mama!
For you have loved me longer,
For you have loved me more,
For you have loved me beyond my CGPA,
For you have loved me despite your complaints about my weight,
For you have loved me in the most difficult time for us.
I love ya, my mama,
Now and always,
For you are the world's greatest mother,
I love ya,
Simply because you're my mama!
For you are the best listener,
For you are the best supporter,
For you have always tried to be the best mother.
I love ya, my mama!
For you throw out your doubts for me,
For you believing me at all cost,
For you have always respected my decisions,
For you have never demanded anything more than i can be.
I love ya , my mama!
For you have loved me longer,
For you have loved me more,
For you have loved me beyond my CGPA,
For you have loved me despite your complaints about my weight,
For you have loved me in the most difficult time for us.
I love ya, my mama,
Now and always,
For you are the world's greatest mother,
I love ya,
Simply because you're my mama!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Teacher Susan
When i was still trying to master "My Memory"..i suddenly miss my organ teacher, Susan.I remember her as a small sized lady with big eyes who shared my love for charm bracelet back then. I remember she has pretty but short fingers for piano.I remember how she put up with my lack of practice back then. I remember how we love to talk about disney songs. Above all, i remember her as a remarkable musician!
Until today, i cant forget how her eyes literally sparkle when she was playing a piece. That amount of concentration, focus, passion are overwhelming.Like knowing you have found a place where you really belonged.. like music is exactly the talent she should dwell on..And how right she is!
And ever since i noticed that, i cant stop wondering what will make my eyes sparkle? what make yours?
Until today, i cant forget how her eyes literally sparkle when she was playing a piece. That amount of concentration, focus, passion are overwhelming.Like knowing you have found a place where you really belonged.. like music is exactly the talent she should dwell on..And how right she is!
And ever since i noticed that, i cant stop wondering what will make my eyes sparkle? what make yours?
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Love is knowing when to let go.
My father's friend is having a lot trouble with his 28 year old daughter. And i must say i understand where these fathers are coming from, but i just cant bring myself to agree with them.
I believe a child is forever bonded to his or her family by blood, and no doubt we are loved from the moment we take our first breath to our our very last no matter how rare we hear those precious words. But as we grow we learn to make choices, be responsible for the kind of choices we made. As we make mistake, we learn and we grow.
There will come a time when we dont want to stay under your wings and be sheltered. There will be time when we made the choice that we want to go out there and experience life's bitter and sweet. There will be a time we beg to differ from you. There will be a time where we choose against you. But all these doesnt mean we dont love you..doesnt mean we dont respect you..doesnt mean we dont need you anymore in our life.
It simply means we need to live our life our way preferably with your support within earshot. Love is knowing when to let go. Love is understanding that we will screw up something someday..but love is also about saying.."Go ahead but if you screw up, i'll always be here."
I believe a child is forever bonded to his or her family by blood, and no doubt we are loved from the moment we take our first breath to our our very last no matter how rare we hear those precious words. But as we grow we learn to make choices, be responsible for the kind of choices we made. As we make mistake, we learn and we grow.
There will come a time when we dont want to stay under your wings and be sheltered. There will be time when we made the choice that we want to go out there and experience life's bitter and sweet. There will be a time we beg to differ from you. There will be a time where we choose against you. But all these doesnt mean we dont love you..doesnt mean we dont respect you..doesnt mean we dont need you anymore in our life.
It simply means we need to live our life our way preferably with your support within earshot. Love is knowing when to let go. Love is understanding that we will screw up something someday..but love is also about saying.."Go ahead but if you screw up, i'll always be here."
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
The Passionate 22
The idea that i'm already 22 definitely has not settled in me. Every year i feel as if i get cooler and calmer about celebrating my birthday.. excited in some way but just not as thrilled as i was younger. I either want something entirely different, or just a simple celebration with family and close friends. But this year while i go from 21 to 22, my thoughtful friends have given me one of the best celebrations ever. Not because they bring me to classy expensive restaurant, not that they shower me with luxurious gifts, not that they invited the whole village to come but the very fact that they went out of their normal way to give me a memorable 22.
It was a surprise! They brought me to Agathians. Agathians is a shelter for underprivileged children and where i go every Sunday for activities with the kids.It is the very place where i have discovered my passion for children.Its the place and the bunch of kids that inspired me to do more than i'm doing right now.Let me just say, the kids are definitely not angelic and they can be mean,annoying and sometimes really rude. But despite everything, i know i love them..each and everyone of them.I love it when Ah Choo comes to me with his toy truck in one hand and grab my hand in his other free hand and tells me that, "i love u teacher".I doubt he knows what it means..but it was still very nice.I was so happy when Chee Keong starts being polite and take my advise to read "Around the world in 80 days". I was so moved when Hari insisted on giving me his Transformer (Its still in my car). I smiled when Poobalan will suddenly just jumped onto my lap and ask me about the blue wolf story i read to him. It makes me feel excited listening to the way Siddha talked about our AIESEC interns and some footballer whose name i dont remember. I'm so relieved when finally Bosmani is able to open up to me instead of being mean every time.
I have made so much memories with them.And i would like to think and hope that i was able to bring to them some positive changes in whatever way. Although sometimes i really feel these kids taught me so much more than i have ever taught them. And it means the world to be able to celebrate my birthday with them. To listen to their birthday song, to look at the birthday card they wrote to me ( My name goes from Yine Ling to Ming Ling, and u have happy brithe day..got bellse u and etc), to look at the birthday cake they held for me..it feels so right!
So thank you my pang pang and friends..it was one heck of a celebration!
I love u all..i really do!
They insist on blindfolding me! Surprise surprise..
22 years old so blow 2 candles i guess?!
Thrilled!
Birthday card
I love u all!
It was a surprise! They brought me to Agathians. Agathians is a shelter for underprivileged children and where i go every Sunday for activities with the kids.It is the very place where i have discovered my passion for children.Its the place and the bunch of kids that inspired me to do more than i'm doing right now.Let me just say, the kids are definitely not angelic and they can be mean,annoying and sometimes really rude. But despite everything, i know i love them..each and everyone of them.I love it when Ah Choo comes to me with his toy truck in one hand and grab my hand in his other free hand and tells me that, "i love u teacher".I doubt he knows what it means..but it was still very nice.I was so happy when Chee Keong starts being polite and take my advise to read "Around the world in 80 days". I was so moved when Hari insisted on giving me his Transformer (Its still in my car). I smiled when Poobalan will suddenly just jumped onto my lap and ask me about the blue wolf story i read to him. It makes me feel excited listening to the way Siddha talked about our AIESEC interns and some footballer whose name i dont remember. I'm so relieved when finally Bosmani is able to open up to me instead of being mean every time.
I have made so much memories with them.And i would like to think and hope that i was able to bring to them some positive changes in whatever way. Although sometimes i really feel these kids taught me so much more than i have ever taught them. And it means the world to be able to celebrate my birthday with them. To listen to their birthday song, to look at the birthday card they wrote to me ( My name goes from Yine Ling to Ming Ling, and u have happy brithe day..got bellse u and etc), to look at the birthday cake they held for me..it feels so right!
So thank you my pang pang and friends..it was one heck of a celebration!
I love u all..i really do!
They insist on blindfolding me! Surprise surprise..
22 years old so blow 2 candles i guess?!
Thrilled!
Birthday card
I love u all!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Hard to believe!
Just had lunch with 2 friends from Beijing. They told me so much about China that i just cant believe.
Unbelievable thing no. 1 , the prices of property. Apparently they told me 1 square metres cost RMB38000.An AVERAGE apartment cost RMB 2 million, a house cost RMB 10 million, a luxurios one cost RMB 20 million onwards. I'm like.."WHAT!!". If you can earn only an average of RMB 20000-30000 yearly,how can it cost so much to buy a house? What a precious lesson on price and value!
Unbelievable thing no. 2, we all have heard about the one child policy right. Apparently, if u want to have a second child, what ppl do is that they go to HK or US to give birth. And the whole process should be illegal and can cost about RMB 2 million onwards..Its amazing that ppl will go to such extent just because they want to have another offspring..Dont know what to say really.
Unbelievable thing no. 3, i speak mandarin like Hongkie. No way..my pronunciation is better.
But all in all.. I'm sure China is an interesting place. I'm even thinking to go to TeoChew and see what kind of place my great grandparents came from. Maybe the whole village is full of ppl with the surname Tan. Erm..interesting.
Unbelievable thing no. 1 , the prices of property. Apparently they told me 1 square metres cost RMB38000.An AVERAGE apartment cost RMB 2 million, a house cost RMB 10 million, a luxurios one cost RMB 20 million onwards. I'm like.."WHAT!!". If you can earn only an average of RMB 20000-30000 yearly,how can it cost so much to buy a house? What a precious lesson on price and value!
Unbelievable thing no. 2, we all have heard about the one child policy right. Apparently, if u want to have a second child, what ppl do is that they go to HK or US to give birth. And the whole process should be illegal and can cost about RMB 2 million onwards..Its amazing that ppl will go to such extent just because they want to have another offspring..Dont know what to say really.
Unbelievable thing no. 3, i speak mandarin like Hongkie. No way..my pronunciation is better.
But all in all.. I'm sure China is an interesting place. I'm even thinking to go to TeoChew and see what kind of place my great grandparents came from. Maybe the whole village is full of ppl with the surname Tan. Erm..interesting.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Uncle Thoo
I really miss my uncle thoo today! He is approaching 60, full of sense of humour, fatherly, cheerful and just someone you would love talking to. I miss the way he called me Ying Ying, how he will always tell me his childhood stories, how he just say.."Oh no..you're not fat" whenever i refused chocolate in his home, how he is always telling me to introduce him to my boyfriend so he could help examine him, above all i love the way that he has somehow treated me like his daughter.
He has 3 children..all of whom have grown up and seems to be too very busy for their old man. He lives with his wife and although i always see nothing but the joyous old man that he is, i know that he is lonely and missed his children terribly. But being a good father, he would set them free knowing that they are happy. He doesnt see them often..after all New York and UK are not exactly like Kuching and Sibu.
Few months back..he scared the hell out of us when he was admitted into the hospital. My dad even went back just to visit him. Thank god he made it through. Thank god for not taking away my uncle thoo. I cant describe the fear and relief that surged through me after i heard that he has made a speedy recovery.
My love for this old man exceeded any bond i have felt for my father's extended family. Weird as it sounds, uncle thoo feels more like family to me than anyone else in kuching.I know i will always adore this old man..this old man who seems to understand me a lot even though he doesnt see me often, this old man whose words i can really relate to despite the age difference, this old man i will always come to regard as another fatherly figure in my life, this old man who will always have a big place in my heart.
Dearest uncle thoo, may you always be in the pink of health. Oh no..you said pink was not enough! Red HOT then!!
He has 3 children..all of whom have grown up and seems to be too very busy for their old man. He lives with his wife and although i always see nothing but the joyous old man that he is, i know that he is lonely and missed his children terribly. But being a good father, he would set them free knowing that they are happy. He doesnt see them often..after all New York and UK are not exactly like Kuching and Sibu.
Few months back..he scared the hell out of us when he was admitted into the hospital. My dad even went back just to visit him. Thank god he made it through. Thank god for not taking away my uncle thoo. I cant describe the fear and relief that surged through me after i heard that he has made a speedy recovery.
My love for this old man exceeded any bond i have felt for my father's extended family. Weird as it sounds, uncle thoo feels more like family to me than anyone else in kuching.I know i will always adore this old man..this old man who seems to understand me a lot even though he doesnt see me often, this old man whose words i can really relate to despite the age difference, this old man i will always come to regard as another fatherly figure in my life, this old man who will always have a big place in my heart.
Dearest uncle thoo, may you always be in the pink of health. Oh no..you said pink was not enough! Red HOT then!!
Monday, January 19, 2009
Hours for Minutes
I just finished my presentation this morning about the concept of "Yin & Yang"(I know your reaction,dun frown yet)..Its actually not that bad since i always have a thing for history..furthermore this is like a going back to your roots kind of thing..so i really enjoy it.
Honestly speaking, i think this is one of my best presentation..Imagine borrowing and carrying heaps of books from the library,going through each of them scanning for information,search on the net,go back to the syllabus if you're missing something and finally completing the slide show.It takes no less than 3 hours for me.Well,sometimes you might come to a dead end and think that what you are writing is not as relevant as you thought...so you go back and edit it one more time,hoping that this time it will be just nice and is in perfect flow.I know perfect is a big word..but if you really work on it,it really does approach the big word.
And so came the presentation and Q & A,I did it in less than 10 minutes.So can you grasp the picture? You spent hours preparing a presentation and completing it in less than 10 minutes.Thats how it is...It shows that in order to build something on good ground and equip it with substance,flow and style,it takes time and efforts no matter how short lived the outcome will be.Very much like a dancer,practicing and perfecting dance moves for years before steping on stage to show her best and receive the well deserved applause.
You just have to decide for yourself whether or not it is worth it.Damn! I wish i was as much of a perfectionist when it comes to chemistry..I'll try hard..Cheers!
Honestly speaking, i think this is one of my best presentation..Imagine borrowing and carrying heaps of books from the library,going through each of them scanning for information,search on the net,go back to the syllabus if you're missing something and finally completing the slide show.It takes no less than 3 hours for me.Well,sometimes you might come to a dead end and think that what you are writing is not as relevant as you thought...so you go back and edit it one more time,hoping that this time it will be just nice and is in perfect flow.I know perfect is a big word..but if you really work on it,it really does approach the big word.
And so came the presentation and Q & A,I did it in less than 10 minutes.So can you grasp the picture? You spent hours preparing a presentation and completing it in less than 10 minutes.Thats how it is...It shows that in order to build something on good ground and equip it with substance,flow and style,it takes time and efforts no matter how short lived the outcome will be.Very much like a dancer,practicing and perfecting dance moves for years before steping on stage to show her best and receive the well deserved applause.
You just have to decide for yourself whether or not it is worth it.Damn! I wish i was as much of a perfectionist when it comes to chemistry..I'll try hard..Cheers!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Haha!!Miracle!!
One word can describe my day perfectly-GREAT!
1st..it was the very entertaining Gossip Girls series..then my shopping session which was totally fruitful and therapeutic.By then...i was in such good mood that everything just brghten up my day..oh,btw i figure i ll just put the traffic jams and those drivers that get on my nerves away for a while..
Anyway the most most most IMPORTANT thing of the day was..I can do Maths!!OMG...even i cant believe it myself..i literally got through most of the questions myself and actually got it right!Can you imagine that?! And hey mind you..its not some easy piece of crap ok..it was something similar to my form 6 maths.But having never understood it back then..and now being able to solve the questions myself and may i stress...completely by myself(except the really hard ones),it meant so much!!I'm on the verge of jumping up from my chair and say "I finally got it!!".
You have no idea..what its like to listen to your lecturer babble and not getting in a word...how frustrating it is sometimes to not understand how did you get so incompetent in the things you were so good at..
But now i feel differently this time around,like things are getting into the right places,like I finally broke out of the stupidity cloud that surrounds me for far too long.Felt like i just move this one hell of a stopping stone off my path.Never felt this miraculous for a while! Cheers!
1st..it was the very entertaining Gossip Girls series..then my shopping session which was totally fruitful and therapeutic.By then...i was in such good mood that everything just brghten up my day..oh,btw i figure i ll just put the traffic jams and those drivers that get on my nerves away for a while..
Anyway the most most most IMPORTANT thing of the day was..I can do Maths!!OMG...even i cant believe it myself..i literally got through most of the questions myself and actually got it right!Can you imagine that?! And hey mind you..its not some easy piece of crap ok..it was something similar to my form 6 maths.But having never understood it back then..and now being able to solve the questions myself and may i stress...completely by myself(except the really hard ones),it meant so much!!I'm on the verge of jumping up from my chair and say "I finally got it!!".
You have no idea..what its like to listen to your lecturer babble and not getting in a word...how frustrating it is sometimes to not understand how did you get so incompetent in the things you were so good at..
But now i feel differently this time around,like things are getting into the right places,like I finally broke out of the stupidity cloud that surrounds me for far too long.Felt like i just move this one hell of a stopping stone off my path.Never felt this miraculous for a while! Cheers!
