Today would be the last day of me being 19 years old,in fact i'm just 1 hour away from turning 20.So it means i'm saying goodbye to the last 19 years and hello to a new stage....the 20's.They say if u get on to 20,it will be like just a blink of an eye when u hit 29 then 30 then older and older...erm pretty true,time really flies especially when u dun pay attention to it.I still remember vividly going to school on the 1st day then wondering how was i going to be when i hit 18..then "BOOM!!"..i'm turning 20 in just TOMORROW.
Lets just put it this way,2007 has not really been a fabulous year for me.I didnt give it all my best for my studies from the beginning and thus resulted in a mere satisfactory results.I didnt set my priority straight and caused myself to stray too far away from my real goal.I indulge too much in pleasure and gave insufficient attention to the serious business.I have also some other incidents which can only be said as too unlucky!..But besides that the lesson i have learnt is that i m not determined enough,didnt not give enough effort and probably just aint intelligent enough to notice it earlier...But hell screw it! I cant rewind and undo all the mistakes i did nor can i just copy and paste previous successes.So there really is no point looking back and whine.The faster u can find out about your mistakes, and the faster u chose to deal with it and change it,the faster u can move on in your life,and therefore the faster u can expect the next best thing to happen.
So wat i'm saying is that...no matter how badly i have fell when i'm 19 ...i got up from it.I manage to keep my chin up and say.."I know i screwed up..i'll just make sure i wont do that again."I think thats good enough at least for me it is.
So i'm kind of glad my 20th birthday is here.Its like closing one door behind you...but bring together the lesson u have learnt and all the great memories with extraordinary people i have met along the way..all the wonderful things i have done..and open another door right in front of you which i have no idea now which way it will lead me to.The feeling of a new found confidence and some new thoughts to fill into the missing place deep under is beyond any words can ever describe.
So...hey 20's!!I'm coming!!
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Damn Indians!! (p/s: i'm not a racist)
Today was one hell of a day....
There was this young indian guy who came up to my working place and started looking for somebody that doesnt really exist.Then minutes later,he came back up with another friend asking me the same damn question!God,i m so mad at myself that that wasnt enough to raise my alarm.Then minutes later when these two "good for nothing","disgrace of society",......and blardy bastards that are total rubbish..(And please do me the favour of fitting any more nasty words)are shoo-ed from my place.I realised my phone which was placed on the table was gone.
I started panicking...then fumble in my bag,call my phone and my phone was still no where to be found.I told my boss...and we both rushed down to see if those 2 idiots are still there...Well deep down...we know those idiots wont be as idiotic as we thought...and the chances of finding them and my phone were less than zero.And soon we have to give up.Damn!
What happens next,i believe you can paint the picture yourself.Get a little nagging from your parents...lodged a police report...have that sim card blocked...lost a nice phone..All these damn things because of my own blunder and of course those 2 indians.On the way back, i just cant stop scolding and cursing them both..hating them so deeply and cursing them whatever they steal from me and others..they ll lose more in the end....all the pain and trouble they caused...they have worse in return.I was filled with anger most on them then a part of it on me.My boss says sometimes i'm just too naive while my dad says i'm just too kind and expect no one but good guys and fine ladies to cross my path...tat there were no such things as bad guys who do bad things.Haih now that really hurts.
But what really broke my heart came after that.When i thought of all the messages that i have kept for months..all the unsaved pictures...all the lost contacts..and of course my beautiful phone which was also a birthday present.Haih...this is just so unfair!! Why do i deserve this?I never do anything harmful to anyone...Why do bad things like this happen to good people?
What makes me feel worse is that i get emotionally attached to an item easily.I value them not only for their price but for all the meanings and memories they carry.For example,my little grey teddy bear,I love him so much beyond everything despite the fact that it looked really old and worn out already because he has been my bestest fren since forever even before i can speak,he was sleeping beside me..See it wasnt the material but the memories that makes it priceless.Haih and now..i look at the phone my fren borrowed me,then i thought of the moment me n my frens hang on the phone for so long that i have to hang up because i felt my ear was burning..all the sweet and lame sms...my pictures!!! All gone!!GONE!
Haih...i just felt so bad.But i do appreciate the effort my parents and mitchell did to cheer me up..especially my mum."Let them fall and roll off the stairs and have their front teeth broken!"..."Let them have their hands hurt and ankles sprained!...Haha my mum...not too bad sometimes.
There was this young indian guy who came up to my working place and started looking for somebody that doesnt really exist.Then minutes later,he came back up with another friend asking me the same damn question!God,i m so mad at myself that that wasnt enough to raise my alarm.Then minutes later when these two "good for nothing","disgrace of society",......and blardy bastards that are total rubbish..(And please do me the favour of fitting any more nasty words)are shoo-ed from my place.I realised my phone which was placed on the table was gone.
I started panicking...then fumble in my bag,call my phone and my phone was still no where to be found.I told my boss...and we both rushed down to see if those 2 idiots are still there...Well deep down...we know those idiots wont be as idiotic as we thought...and the chances of finding them and my phone were less than zero.And soon we have to give up.Damn!
What happens next,i believe you can paint the picture yourself.Get a little nagging from your parents...lodged a police report...have that sim card blocked...lost a nice phone..All these damn things because of my own blunder and of course those 2 indians.On the way back, i just cant stop scolding and cursing them both..hating them so deeply and cursing them whatever they steal from me and others..they ll lose more in the end....all the pain and trouble they caused...they have worse in return.I was filled with anger most on them then a part of it on me.My boss says sometimes i'm just too naive while my dad says i'm just too kind and expect no one but good guys and fine ladies to cross my path...tat there were no such things as bad guys who do bad things.Haih now that really hurts.
But what really broke my heart came after that.When i thought of all the messages that i have kept for months..all the unsaved pictures...all the lost contacts..and of course my beautiful phone which was also a birthday present.Haih...this is just so unfair!! Why do i deserve this?I never do anything harmful to anyone...Why do bad things like this happen to good people?
What makes me feel worse is that i get emotionally attached to an item easily.I value them not only for their price but for all the meanings and memories they carry.For example,my little grey teddy bear,I love him so much beyond everything despite the fact that it looked really old and worn out already because he has been my bestest fren since forever even before i can speak,he was sleeping beside me..See it wasnt the material but the memories that makes it priceless.Haih and now..i look at the phone my fren borrowed me,then i thought of the moment me n my frens hang on the phone for so long that i have to hang up because i felt my ear was burning..all the sweet and lame sms...my pictures!!! All gone!!GONE!
Haih...i just felt so bad.But i do appreciate the effort my parents and mitchell did to cheer me up..especially my mum."Let them fall and roll off the stairs and have their front teeth broken!"..."Let them have their hands hurt and ankles sprained!...Haha my mum...not too bad sometimes.
